GREY

 People who telling me to keep doing what I like is worth keeping.

In my low moment in life when I feel like giving up everything, 

that person not just telling me to keep my chin up

sharing me a motivational clip to watch 

but

they told me to just cry whenever I feel like crying

They didn't ask me to stop crying, continuing life and ignore everything right away

That is escaping

Instead, they ask me to just let the tears out, 

That is embracing

when I feel like I'm not interested in everything in life, the person asked me about the things that I like to do 

I say, 'writing'

'then what else?'

'watching some drama n movie'(which I don't avid to do before)

I added..

'listening song'

These excite me other than anything else 

'how about sketching?'

and I answered..

'sort of'

They said, 

'then...do it'

and I

....................................................

Wait

What kind of gesture is that?

That 

is 

soo 

powerful.

people said, 'blood is thicker than water'

but having these kind of person who doesn't related to me thru blood,

telling me to 'write' 

and consoling me like we are in same womb 26 years ago, 

is indeed GREAT.

I aware that, even my heart no longer into anything else but writing, that is a good sign

Even though I'm suffering with this desolation, but as long I'm still writing pieces, 

I'm still a human.

But if I quit writing, 

I'm already 

died 

inside.

Like a pity soul waiting time passing by 

doing nothing hopelessly.

Feeling nothing, just empty.

Seeing nothing 

but 

grey.